Wednesday, November 08, 2006

things i need to remember

Is karma really so hard to see in operation? Don’t we only have to look back at our own lives to see clearly the consequences of some of our actions? When we upset or hurt someone, didn’t it rebound on us? Were we not left with a bitter and dark memory, and the shadows of self-disgust? That memory and those shadows are karma.

Our habits and our fears too are also due to karma, the results of our past actions, words, and thoughts. If we examine our actions, and become really mindful of them, we will see that there is a pattern that repeats itself.

Whenever we act negatively, it leads to pain and suffering;

whenever we act positively, it eventually results in happiness.

— Sogyal Rinpoche

Bishop's Peak at Sunset 2006


Bishop's Peak at Sunset 2006, originally uploaded by mayhem.

Classic SLO County shot! Taken from the top (near the top looks like) of Bishop's by SLO's own Rob Kaye. Check out more from his hike: he's got 13 pics in the set.

Oh, and good morning!

meanwhile, brezny really knows how to sweet talk a girl

VIRGO Aug. 23-Sept. 22): Sometimes, Virgo, you're too damn smart for your own good. You may describe a problem so brilliantly, for instance, that you think you've solved it merely by talking about it, and never get around to actually fixing it. On other occasions your fine mind runs amuck in an orgy of razor-sharp analysis, cutting things apart in order to understand them but not putting them back together again. I beg you not to indulge in these excesses during the coming week. Your intelligence will be soaring beyond even its usual exceptional levels, and it would be a shame for you not to capitalize on it momentously.

my favorite flickr comments

Can be found on this photo. Only five people (me included) have left comments, yet there are well over 100 comments here. It cracks me up. Maybe it's too much of an "in"side joke.... :)


Tuesday, November 07, 2006

Fellow Female Flickr Photographer #5: mygigi

tucked in searching, wondering, hiding
Set: DoF | Set: the evolution of my gigi
All photos shown above are created and owned by mygigi

How do you begin to talk about Gigi? She's ultra feminine with a very sharp edge. And when I say edge... how to explain... do you know what I mean when I say that beauty and fragility are in the most real and raw things? That's what I mean when I say edge here.

She's a classic beauty. Extremely pretty. But what I love about her is how she completely transcends her beauty. I think this is by a.) not taking herself that seriously (yet, never minimizing herself) and b.) showing herself without filters, despite whatever hardware may be attached to her camera.

I admire her. I respect her. And I love seeing the new images that pop up in her photostream. She recently took most of her photos private, but seems to be trickling them out to the masses again. So run, masses, run. And meet Gigi. You will be glad.

» View mygigi's Flickr stream
» View her Dof set
» View her the evolution ofmy gigi set

Monday, November 06, 2006

Fellow Female Flickr Photographer #4: jkonig



Set: Orange is the new black | Set: My muse is a parking lot
Both photos shown above are copyright jkonig

Meet Jen. Aka jkonig. AKA doesn't take herself seriously but will seriously leave funny and enouraging comments on your comment stream. Plus she likes to swear. I like people who like to swear, but typically only do so in happy, enthusiastic shouts of glee.

Plus, her freaking muse is a parking lot. How can you not love that?

» View jkonig's Flickr stream
» View her Orange is the new black set
» View her My muse is a parking lot set

hummer


hummer, originally uploaded by emdot.

overheard

whilst she who shall not be named enumerated all of the many good points of sandra bullock...

she who shall not be named: AND she has a two-legged dog!

he who shall not be named: Aw, just like Paul McCartney.... do NOT attribute that to me...

Sunday, November 05, 2006

Fellow Female Flickr Photographer #3: Elizabeth Taylor


Set: Mad/Glad


Set: 10 Things | Or just visit her stream and see it all
All photos shown above are created and owned by Stephanie/Elizabeth Taylor

Okay, so me choosing Stephanie, aka Elizabeth Taylor, is kind of cheating because I consider her one of my bestest Flickr friends. In fact, just thinking of Mizz E to the T makes me smile.

Mad/Glad is pretty self explanatory. But her 10 things set is about gratitude and appreciating the little things. Well, I guess it helps when the "little" things are knock outs in their own right. Three cheers for gratefulness and beauty.

And don't forget the side of goof.

» View Elizabeth Taylor's Flickr stream
» View her Mad/Glad set
» View her 10 things set

northward bound

On the train again. This time going north; somewhere between Lompoc and Guadalupe. It is Sunday evening and the train is perfectly not-crowded.

Anthony is the man who works the Cafe cart. Anthony is nice and very upbeat and does his job very well. If you buy a Corona he makes sure to add a slice of lime. If you need something heated, he is, make no mistake, there to heat it up for you. But, despite the cheer and the fabulous aptitude, the thing that makes Anthony stand out and really shine, is that he is the Cafe Singer. If you are ever so lucky to be on the same train with Anthony, you will know because he will sing to you. You being the collective you of all the Amtrak passengers, as Anthony does his serenading over the loudspeaker. Typically, these are songs you've ever heard of (money has it songs that Anthony has never heard of either), and his lyrics sometimes make sense and typically have to do with
  1. train comfort
  2. beautiful scenery
  3. light blue ocean
  4. april showers
  5. and an open snack car
I love Anthony.

This afternoon, when I first boarded the train, it wasn't un-crowded. In fact, it was the very opposite of un-crowded (which happens to be, well, crowded.). I had to beg to sit next to a college co-ed who was studying for a class while her knitting took up the seat next to her. But she was sweet, put the needles away, and made room for me. But the thing was, I kinda wanted a seat by myself as well. And, I needed an electrical plug because my iPod was low and I was completely set on finishing the Bill Bryson audio book whilst I worked on knitting of my own.

Now here's the thing. I am late to reading Bill Bryson books and I am late to taking up knitting. I know. I didn't mean to be and, in fact, bought a Bryson book that I ended up giving away as a gift years ago. I also bought knitting needles and very cute yarn when my friend Carrie was pregnant with her son, Rainier, with the intention of making a super cute baby beanie for the tot-to-be's sure-to-be very cute head. Rainier is turning three this month. Carrie doesn't know about the knitting, of course, because at the time I didn't even learn how to cast on, much less knit two, pearl two. So, the needles and adorable yarn have spent the last 1000+ days in the back of my closet living a forgotten existence next to the linoleum block, the glue gun, and an assortment of feathers, beads, glitter and acrylic paints.

So, I am late to knitting. I was late to vegetarianism, too. Late to going to college, for getting my nose pierced, and to taking an interest in a career. I still don't have HBO. So, me taking up knitting three years after its peak shouldn't really surprise anyone.

This weekend I finished my first scarf. I don't think anyone wants to wear the damn thing — the yarn is too thick, the width is too thin and the length is too short. But it's a good color (a very nice green) and I'm proud of learning how to do it all on my own (well me and a 8.5 x 11 inch tri-folded instruction booklet with illustrations no bigger than your thumbnail.).

With the first scarf done I was still filled with knitting enthusiasm and, so, ventured into the deepest, darkest, dust-bunniest location of my "where I keep all my crap" closet to resurrect the very cute yarn and the very, very (incredibly, remarkably) tiny knitting needles.

While the yarn was still cute, there was not enough of it to make anything larger than a Barbie-sized beanie, and with ten hours of train ride ahead of me, I knew I was going to require more textiles than that. And that is when I remembered the alpaca wool. The alpaca wool — all 40 skeins of it — has a story in and of itself — which I may recount here in days to come, but it isn't really part of this story. No. This story isn't how I got the alpaca wool (in a fit of luck for $40 while still in college), or what I did with it (crocheted a king-size afghan for an unappreciative recipient), how I got it back or how it came to no longer be a crocheted king-size afghan. No, this bit is about the amalgamation and/or sum and/or consequences of combining very fine, slippery alpaca wool with very fine incredibly eensy teeny tiny eeny weeny even slipperyer knitting needles. And that outcome would be knit and redo; knit and redo. Knit and redo. Knit and redo. Knit and swear. Knit and redo. Knit and kick your neighbor. Knit and redo. In fact, knit and pearl? Meet fit and hurl.

fit and hurl

So after pulling out entire rows and rows and rows of very "homegrown" looking craftwork, I gave in (but not up!) and decided to politely "fuck it" and just let my haphazard, slipped, missing and inconsistent stitches simply "be." And so now I find myself really proud of my 2.5 x 12 inch scarf that took five hours to create (minus stitch ripping out time) and I look forward to doing even more haphazard, homegrown, crafty knitting in future train rides. At this rate I expect to give it to Rainier as a present for his tenth birthday.

However, maybe before it's finished I will show it to Anthony down in the Cafe car. He seems like the type who might appreciate my efforts. And who knows? Maybe I’ll even get a song out of it.

Saturday, November 04, 2006

You could always phone me...

Fellow Female Flickr Photographer #2: Mary Jane 2040


Set: Call me | Set: 5 mintues
Both photos shown above were photographed MaryJane 2040. She uses a Creative Commons license. Please respect it.

Rachel is waiting for you to call her. :) Also check out her 5 Minutes set.

I think I know her from Utata, I don't remember not knowing her on Flickr, but I'm guessing I was introduced to her work via Utata (as I am with so many great photographers.). What gets me with MJ 2040's stream is her raw and offbeat approach to most things. And this raw and offbeat approach creates the tenderest of photos whether they are meant to be tender or not. Check her out.

» View Mary Jane 2040's Flickr stream
» View her Call Me set
» View her 5 minutes set

good morning


good morning, originally uploaded by emdot.

today i slept



and knitted. and listened to bill bryson. but mostly i slept. and it was a beautiful thing.

it's not like i had a choice, though. my eyes were not capable of the "be open" thing. same as my body was not capable of the "be awake" thing and my brain was not capable of the "follow a thought" thing. instead it was sleep-dream. wake up. knit. sleep dream wake up knit. repeat many times. sprinkle with intermittent listening to bill bryson who is my new hero.

i think most people who have spent an entire day sleeping know the little fear that can creep into the back of your head that says "if i keep sleeping i will not be able to sleep."

yes, that thought did cross my mind. but as it crossed it i realized i could probably stay in bed all day and night and still be sleepy tomorrow morning. so, i pushed that worry away.

****************

steve and i went to the griffith park observatory today. we were really excited about it, especially since there were limited spots available. lmited usually implying "fewer people than one would normally encounter at griffith park."

not so, i'm afraid. the place was packed. packered than pack, actually. and we were both stoked to be there but i think we were equally both stoked to discover that the other was ready to leave early. it was just too crowded. and we were hungry. and me hungry? that is nothing pleasant. that makes me cranky and sensitive and more tired and did i say cranky?

i dare say we almost got into our first fight and would have had i not surfaced briefly from my hunger stupor to see my stupidity.

so we went to dinner (asian fusion place that servers some chinese, some sushi and some thai, all at once if you so wish) and it was delicious and i washed all my crankiness away with two glasses of sierra nevada pale ale.

sierra nevada pale ale can cure damn near anything i think.

tomorrow = more griffith park (travel town? merry-go-round? autry museum? picnic?) and then it's back on the train for me.

Friday, November 03, 2006

paw sunday


paw sunday, originally uploaded by emdot.

Yesterday I was home sick – didn’t get out of my pajamas, in fact – which meant that I was subjected to both the joy of daytime tv (Oprah and some Ellen) and the bane that is daytime TV (everything that isn’t Oprah or Ellen.)

Oprah’s guest was Dr. Oz which was serendipitous for me as I have recently started a health kick complete with eating better, eating less, and moving more. My goal is to lose 20 pounds – yes that is right two-oh – by January one.

Now I know deep down that this is a bit of a ridiculous goal. One, I’ve never lost 20 pounds in my life. The most I have ever lost, in fact was 15 pounds and that was quite the achievement. Two, it is the holidays. November and December. And we are all intimate with the sabotage of the fudge and eggnog roadside gut bombs, not to mention the pumpkin pie suicide bomber and the Great Stuffing and Gravy insurgency.

Three, it’s only nine weeks. Which means that I would need to lose just about 2.5 pounds per week.

Yet, still, I feel like if I don’t aim high (and/or atmospherically) it won’t feel real, it won’t feel pressing, it won’t feel important and/or I will simply forget that I am on this health kick and go back to my one-million-calorie a day ways and honey could you pass the remote.

(Aside: the remote part. That was purely used for writing filler; I’m no couch potato. I am however, an ardent mouse potato sometimes only spurred to action when my DSL goes down or Flickr goes down or my email goes down or any combination of the three).

Anyhow. At home. Sick. Daytime TV. Oprah and Ellen. And Oprah’s guest was Dr. Oz who (if you haven’t seen him before), looks like a Ken doll but has an enthusiasm only surpassed by Richard Simmons. Dr. Oz is excited. Dr. Oz in knowledgeable and Dr. Oz wants to share his excitement and knowledge with you. Especially when it comes to eating right and walking.

And me? I was happy to soak it up.

sunset, amtrak style, take one.


sunset, amtrak style, take one., originally uploaded by emdot.

off to jump on a train... more later!

Thursday, November 02, 2006

Sharing the Flickr Love — All Month Long

For the month of November I will be featuring a fellow female flickr photographer. I wasn't trying to descriminate against the guys (and probably I have more photographs from men represented in my favorites than from women, for whatever reason), but I love my female flickr contacts so much I wanted to showcase some of them here. I missed yesterday, so I'll be taking this through December 1.

So, with no further ado...

Fellow Female Flickr Photographer #1: LunaSol



Set: Squirrel Antics | Set: Fog/Rain
Both photos shown above are copyright LunaSol

Martha has been a contact of mine for a long time. She is a great and positive contact to have, leaving the nicest comments and being very encouraging. Her stream easily wanders from nature to nurture, the every day and the extraordinary.

» View LunaSol's Flickr stream
» View her Squirrel Antics set
» View her Fog/Rain set

earthquake!

it was very short (1.5 seconds tops). one of those where i thought, "shoot, that could have been fun."

ooooooh


ooooooh, originally uploaded by emdot.

here's the deal



I don't really see myself as a person who gets sick easily. In fact, I feel pretty hearty. I feel pretty "bring it on suckahs cuz I'm not going to catch your lame virus; your silly bacteria."

But, since working at the university, I've kind of gotten sick a lot. Or it feels like it. Only one really knock-me-down-can't-get up sickness, but quite a few of little other ones that just leave me either exhausted or singularly keeping the Kleenex brand in the black.

Today is one of those days. And it really started yesterday with the chills and then being hot hot hot but cold at the same time (how does that happen?). And today it feels like there may be a tiny furnace a-lighting in my lungs. No. No, I say. No. I don't want to be sick. I have things to do.

*****

When I was self-employed for two years I did not get sick once. Not once. In hindsight I chalk that up to not working full time (plenty of time to rest, plenty of time to be outside and get fresh air), not being in a poorly ventilated office, not working with a lot of other people who were also getting sick.

The beauty of my current work sitch is that there is a huge open window and three fans that keep things well-ventilated. BUT there are thousands of students and thousands of staff and faculty and only so many elevator buttons that are being pushed by all of them.

Note to self: wash hands more often.

Wednesday, November 01, 2006

7 mares


7 mares, originally uploaded by emdot.

Taking life seriously does not mean spending our whole lives meditating as if we were living in the Himalaya Mountains or in the old days in Tibet. In the modern world, we have to work to earn our living, but we should not get entangled in a nine-to-five existence, where we live without any view of the deeper meaning of life.

Our task is to strike a balance, to find a middle way, to learn not to overextend ourselves with extraneous activities and preoccupations, but to simplify our lives more and more. The key to finding a happy balance in modern life is simplicity.

— Sogyal Rinpoche

vides verdes


vides verdes, originally uploaded by Orrin.

Orrin went to Mexico with a $2 camera in hand. That's right: 2 bucks. This photo is proof that it's the photographer, not the camera.

Tuesday, October 31, 2006

unmakeupfying after halloween


unmakeupfying after halloween, originally uploaded by emdot.

coming clean



November is a big month for me cuz I'm making some pledges.

Pledge one: NaBloPoMo — blog posting every day for the month of November (and totally looking forward to it).

Pledge two: DIET AND EXERCISE. For real, but only for 61 days. Me and diets? We've had our ups and downs (mostly downs). One of the problems is that it feels too daunting; too neverending; too totally lacking in a light at the end of the tunnel. So, being an unrealistic masochist, I am choosing to put things into overdrive for November and December -- that's right -- just in time for the holidays.

But I have the enthusiasm. So, that, coupled with my notorious 10-week attention span; and then coupled with me telling my plan to the Internets (later you can The Google it), I figure I at least have a chance.

And a chance is all I need.

That and fewer understatements.

********

And finally, here are me and 7s pre-the cleaning:

esteban y maria

Thursday, October 26, 2006

just playing with the flash


just playing with the flash, originally uploaded by sesame ellis.

Okay. I am in a bad mood. A bitter, dark mood. Which is so strange because only hours ago I was feeling like the world was my oyster. Now? I'm feeling bitey and snippy and don't put your hands near my mouth cuz you are likely to lose a finger (inside joke: waiting for sevens to show me his missing digit -- he loses it frequently and not because i am bitey and snippy; he just has bad finger luck.).

Anyhow. I'm getting ready to leave work (have already wrapped up) and decided to quickly check my email before i leave for my long (long! long!) (okay,not long at all) journey home. And my sister sent me a forward (which I typically am not a fan of) that was all animals in halloween costumes.

And this is what I learned:

When grumpy and bitter and bitey and snippy LOOK AT ANIMALS DRESSED UP IN HALLOWEEN COSTUMES. I'm serious. I cracked my first smile in what must have been hours (HOURS, PEOPLE!!).

And then I thought, hmmm... I wonder if my Flickr Favorites folder would have worked also?

So I fired up Ye Ol' Flickr stream and clicked on my Favorites. Okay -- I confess, the animals in halloween get up had probably already loosened my facial muscles and taken some bite out of the biteyness. However, photo after photo just loosened my bad mood mode.

Also, the fact that it was going home time probably didn't hurt, either.

Anyway. I've told you before, but I'll tell you again -- my favorites folder is a wonderful place. You should check them out. If even for the length of time it takes to listen to a favorite song. Yeah. So do that. Turn on your iTunes. Choose a favorite song (preferably lopey or mellow), and watch my favorites as part of a slide show.

And you'll feel better, too.

» Recommended song: I'll Be on the Water by the Akron Family
» My Flickr Favorites as a slidehow.

Wednesday, October 25, 2006

Sunset gig


Sunset gig, originally uploaded by Avant Gardenias.

taken in shell beach. i love this shot.

Tuesday, October 24, 2006

ARRHRGGHRHRHRHHHRRRRRRRRR!


ARRHRGGHRHRHRHHHRRRRRRRRR!, originally uploaded by sweetdogk.

they love each other. :)

last wednesday kb and bret had me, rem, dan, and becky over for dinner, photos of their month-long honeymoon, and then the project runway finale. :)

i gotta say, their honeymoon photos are kb's best photos ever. great light. fun take on damn near everything. i want prints of everything. :)