Monday, June 29, 2009

I just heard about this...

just what the doctor ordered

And oh man I want to go. This is exactly what I've been wanting: a retreat; to be with Sangha; to hear the Sakyong; to hear Pema; to be in the mountains (oh man I want to be in the Rockies surrounded by aspen yes! with afternoon thunderstorms yes yes!); to sit on my cushion; to simplify everything; to quiet my mind.

I love Shambhala Mountain Center so much. Some places just capture my heart immediately (the high desert has been featured prominently recently, but there are of course others) and SMC is definitely one of those places. I was lucky enough to be at the Consecration of the Great Stupa of Dharmakaya back in 01 and things really fell into place for me after that. I would like that very much again.

Friday, June 26, 2009


Ivaloo, originally uploaded by Orrin.

orrin: let us know if you would like to skype with our baby because our baby would probably love to skype with you.

oh Ivaloo you are born into a crazy, connected, wonderful age. :)

love to the andersons and thomases. my heart just pours over with happiness for you. xo.

Wednesday, June 24, 2009

Tuesday, June 23, 2009

this comes as no surprise (brezsny version)

love is in the air, originally uploaded by emdot.

(my blog has become less of a blog and simply justs notes to myself). (this note comes from brezsny)

VIRGO (Aug. 23-Sept. 22): There's a better than even chance that you're about to embark on a Summer of Love. To improve your odds even more, meditate on the following questions.

  1. What qualities do you look for in a lover that you would benefit from developing more fully in yourself?
  2. What do you think are your two biggest delusions about the way love works?
  3. Is there anything you can do to make yourself more lovable?
  4. Is there anything you can do to be more loving?
  5. Are you willing to deal with the fact that any intimate relationship worth pursuing will inevitably evoke the most negative aspects of both partners — and require both partners to heal their oldest wounds?

Monday, June 22, 2009

(note to self)

Life shrinks or expands in proportion to one's courage.
— Anais Nin
And two more things to ponder a la Martha Beck
  • The struggle itself is enough to fill our hearts. — Camus
  • Your path should be chosen by your heart's desires, not by what seems to be working (or not working). — M. Beck.

gentleness brings daring

the longest day of the year, originally uploaded by emdot.

When there is daring, you dare to do something: you put forth your vision fearlessly. People have doubts about big vision because they don't have a sense of gentleness in themselves first. So gentleness brings daring and a sense of fearlessness. Daring is appreciation of letting go in the fundamental sense. First you develop gentleness toward yourself; then you begin to develop daring, which is connected with how to express your gentleness to the world outside, how to proclaim your sanity. Your are not going crazy because you have seen the Great Eastern Sun, which is the symbol of expansive vision in the Shambhala world. Rather, because you have seen the Great Eastern Sun, you are very daring and at the same time very gentle and soft. The softer you become, the greater the message to the world becomes.

— Chogyam Trungpa Rinpoche

Sunday, June 21, 2009

father's day

my dad is very political, originally uploaded by emdot.

My dad probably doesn't know this (but I will tell him today when I call him): my dad song is Blue Sky by the Allman Brothers. My dad loves the Allmans. Me too. And he loves that song. Me too. And it always makes me think of him.

My three favorite father/daughter songs:

  • Daugher by Louden Wainwright III
    that's my daughter in the water / everything she owns i bought her
  • Daughters by John Mayer
    fathers, be good to your daughters / daughters will love like you do
  • Father and Daughter by Paul Simon
    as long as one and one is two / there could never be a father / who loved his daughter more than I love you

Friday, June 19, 2009

orrin and stacey had a baby

twenty-five of 52, originally uploaded by Orrin.

some things are very right in this world.

Thursday, June 11, 2009


let your leaf light shine, originally uploaded by emdot.

So, Firefox keeps crashing on me when I try to print. Not every time, but often enough that it unnerves me. And infrequent enough that each time it crashes I'm surprised.

Tyson suggested that I move to Safari.

Me: I don't like it; it's too pared down.
Tyson: Pared down? What do you mean? Too fast? Too efficient?

Tuesday, June 09, 2009

rob brezsny, for the love of god can you just freaking spell it out for me?

liminal, originally uploaded by emdot.

VIRGO (Aug. 23-Sept. 22): A talent scout who has the power to change
your course is drawing closer and closer. Find out why, and capitalize on
it. Meanwhile, a chameleon who has always had your number just lost it.
Find out the details, and take advantage. If that's not enough to keep you
busy, I'll clue you in to the fact that a cool fool only recently realized you
have something that he or she wants. Find out who and what, and exploit
the possibilities. (P.S.: I should also mention that there's a wild thing out
there who would love to lick your hand. Find out why, etc.)