Tuesday, September 25, 2007

good news

good news, originally uploaded by emdot.

yea! i woke up and felt "normal" again. you know, like a member of the human race. not a member of the i'm sick and can't get outta bed bring me some OJ race. yea!

as i said in flickr, i may still need to blow my nose, but at least i feel like myself again.

onwards and upwards!

Sunday, September 23, 2007

memes and things

emdot, originally uploaded by emdot.

insprired by B Bol.

1. YOUR ROCK STAR NAME: (first pet & current car)
Paquito Rav *

2. YOUR GANGSTA NAME: (fave ice cream flavor, favorite cookie)
Rocky Road Milano

3. YOUR “FLY Guy/Girl” NAME: (first initial of first name, first three letters of your last name)
M Fig

4. YOUR DETECTIVE NAME: (favorite color, favorite animal)
Navy Crane **

5. YOUR SOAP OPERA NAME: (middle name, city where you were born)
Micole San Manuel

6. YOUR STAR WARS NAME: (the first 3 letters of your last name, first 2 letters of your first)

7. SUPERHERO NAME: (”The” + 2nd favorite color, favorite drink)
The Green Coffee

8. NASCAR NAME: (the first names of your grandfathers)
Carl Gilbert (or is that Gilbert Carl?)

9. STRIPPER NAME: ( the name of your favorite perfume/cologne/scent, favorite candy)
Bucheron Dumle

10. WITNESS PROTECTION NAME: (mother’s & father’s middle names )

11. TV WEATHER ANCHOR NAME: (Your 5th grade teacher’s last name, a major city that starts with the same letter)
Center Cannes

12. SPY NAME: (your favorite season/holiday, flower)
Autumn Peony (this would be a better weather person name)

13. CARTOON NAME: (favorite fruit, article of clothing you’re wearing right now + "ie" or "y")
Raspberry Jeansie

14. HIPPY NAME: (What you ate for breakfast, your favorite tree)
Bagel Jacaranda

15. YOUR ROCKSTAR TOUR NAME: (”The” + Your fave hobby/craft, fave weather element + “Tour”)
The Photo Rainbow Tour (obviously for 9 year old girls)

* I'm not really sure which pet was my first. :) I usually use a different cat's name cuz it's funnier.

** Meh. I don't have a favorite color right now. And favorite animal. Please. What animal isn't my favorite? ("except for the weasel" -- homer simpson)

Thursday, September 20, 2007

sea of color

sea of color, originally uploaded by emdot.

I suppose it's bad to have a crush on your own photograph. But I heart this photo. I'm not one of those people who gravitates to color (so much as light -- I could photograph a white wall with light reflections on it for hours), so I guess this is a surprising photo for me to have taken. but i really really like it. i guess this is more that I just really really liked her chalk drawing. and her outfit was great too.

This is a completely random posting
(to warn you).

  • I love Lambchop
    They just came on my iPod. They make me happy. I'm so glad I found them. And "C'mon" and "No you c'mon" have been two of my favorite and most listened to CDs for the last few years. Years. I need to get more music.

  • I got a new iPod
    And I'm very exicted about it. :) I really made out like a spoiled bandit for my birthday. I'm old enough where I should not be so spoiled. That is the thought I keep thinking anyway. I got an awesome and very cool lens for my Canon S2 IS (who knew you could even do that?). I got a Crumpler bag. I got a GREAT book (Eat Pray Love). I got a handmade mug that I have been coveting for about 15 years. I got some very cool beads to make earrings with. I got a homemade necklace that everyone stops me to ask me about. And I got some cash from some generous family folk that allowed me to get a new iPod. It's silver, classic, and 80 GB. You know how people love their iPhones? That's how I love my new iPod. :)

  • Things I'm looking forward to downloading: more Pema talks. And I heard that you can download things like the Dalai Lama's talks at Stanford or something like that. I'm all over it. My iPod is like my little buddhist scroll filled with pithy wisdom. And songs you can shake your booty too. Buddha and booty. Not a bad combination.
And then there was a strange email I got addressed to webmaster@mycompanyname's.edu. It went like this:
"Can someone pass on to enginereing and Mr Walsh that I have thought about my new element research and as a matter of fact ,the last time I was on your campus a cop pointed a gun at me and all that cop stuff they did to me so forget it ,people get shot on collage campuses I dont need it to be me,you people realy bring me down!!!!!!!!
Um. Dude? I think you sent this to the wrong place. The wrong webmaster at the wrong place of employment. I have no idea who or what or where or god only knows why.

But has made me chuckle for most of the afternoon. Especially this part: and all that cop stuff they did to me. Which probably makes me a sick bastard, but I can't help myself.

Saturday, September 15, 2007

sometimes i get occular migraines

I got one this morning.

I'm really sick of this sick thing. I just feel like my body and soul are all outta whack -- but oh! so! close! to being within whack. close to touching whack. whack nearing.

the way i experience occular migraines: they start as a shimmering in the outside of my peripheral vision. do you know what moire patterns are? it's like a moire pattern in the edge of my vision -- always in the shape of a C. even if i close my eyes i still get the shimmery moire.

there is nothing that happens that lets you know it's going to happen. it just happens. and it doesn't last long. 30 minutes-ish. but now i'm left with a dull achy feeling in my head and i'm just tired of not being easily carefree healthy.

on wednesday i was hit with a serious case of exhaustion. like thinking was too tiresome. seeing? too tiresome. i went to bed early and then stayed in bed all day on thursday. too tired to flip a page of a book.

what is going on? there is a very big part of me that thinks i need to see an acupuncturist and get all this out of whack back to true. maybe i just need to be trued? perhaps i should see a bike repairperson. :)

Friday, September 07, 2007

true human, being

sometimes todd paints houses, originally uploaded by emdot.

Spiritual truth is not something elaborate and esoteric, it is in fact profound common sense. When you realize the nature of mind, layers of confusion peel away. You don’t actually “become” a buddha, you simply cease, slowly, to be deluded. And being a buddha is not being some omnipotent spiritual superman, but becoming at last a true human being. — sogyal rinpoche

Sunday, September 02, 2007

this i believe

[h]air, originally uploaded by emdot.

"I believe in strange blessings, because taking away my house brought me home."
I think this is one of my favorite "This I believe's" yet. A young woman who moves back to Louisiana to help her family rebuild after their home was destroyed by Katrina. No privacy, very little money and the embarrassment of having to say "i live with my parents." But these things have actually brought her more peace, more fitness, more enjoyment.

This one really touched me.

Sometimes I think we have all so solidly bought into what is "adult," what is appropriate, what is expected, what defines success, meaning and blah blah blah that we erase the thought of staying close to home and investing in committments that really mean something. Family. Hard work. Simplicity.

I love those things.

» Listen or read Robin Baudier's TIB essay called The Strange Blessing That Brought Me Home.