Pema once again stops me in my tracks.
Learn to accept the present moment as if you had invited it. And work with it instead of against it, making it your ally rather than your enemy.
Really, this is an uncovering process. I've always been taught that way I've always found it inspiring that what we need (the wisdom and strength, the confidence in our Buddha nature, our awakened heart and mind) is here. Now. Always. And we're uncovering it. We're making it available to us. But we're not inventing it new or importing it from somewhere else. It's here.
And that's why you have these moments of insight, when things just naturally open up, and so forth. Because it's here.
That's why you have the sense of being in a fog, then those clouds parting.
No one else can give it to you. People will help you and support you with teachings and practices. But you do it yourself.